1. |
My Condolences
03:05
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The best you are is dead to me
I hope you shiver at the feeling of happiness
The thought of your sleepless nights put me at ease
Setting flame to every bridge you made but never took the blame
Deceived by your own mind
Searching for what you will never find
You sold me a lie
And now I realized that it wasn't worth my time
In the end always digging at my heels holding on so I can feel
You fed off that weakness
You craved my disease
Now I'm left with the choices that weren't mine
Wondering why I gave it all to watch it die a slow painful death
Built on lies and bloodshed
To a thief once known as friend
You'll get yours in the end
Cry wolf to your army of sheep
Leading the weary blinded by your deceit
Too high on your pedestal to see it all crumbled underneath your feet
I watched your dreams fucking die
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2. |
Varicose Veins
03:10
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If only blood dried the color of skin
Would it camouflage all the lies within?
If you could only feel the pain I feel every day
But to you that pain wasn't real anyway
Your words have tainted my bloodstream
Is this what family's supposed to be?
Born in a den of wolves and snakes waiting on your every mistake
All my life was a feeling of shame
That I never deserved my name
And I'll carry this burden to my grave
Lost in the shadow you left for me
Blood doesn't mean shit
To them I don't exist
A mistake, a regret, I'll never fit in
No love lost in the end
Blood doesn't mean shit
These wounds are open ended
You never cared don't try to pretend
Where were you when I needed you most?
Where were you when I lost all hope?
Maybe now you'll understand the state of mind your actions put me in
Blood doesn't mean shit
To them I don't exist
A mistake, a regret, I'll never fit in
No love lost in the end
Blood doesn't mean shit
These wounds are open ended
You never cared don't try to pretend
So you keep your name
And I'll keep mine
I hope you read this song and think about every line
Empty this blood that binds
I refuse to live this lie
I'm done wasting my precious time
I'm moving on with my life
I never asked for your blood in my veins
I never wanted to be one of you anyway
I never asked for your blood in my veins
Nothing will ever change
We are not the same
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3. |
Reflection
02:59
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Life is unforgiving
A tall tale, a prophecy
Force fed to you by the hand that feeds
As you get older you'll start to see
Fate stabs you in the back and calls it tragedy
Your friends will deceive you too
And all of those closest to you
Time is your enemy
And the clock has no sympathy
There's no loyalty
There's no family
Dog eat dog
You against me
We all drown in the misery
So here's to the end
And whatever lies ahead
I've give up on trying
I'm stuck with the mess I've made
There's nothing left in me
Save your bullshit sympathy
We're all under hallow sky
Drowning in the tears we've cried
Left my hopes dead in the rearview
Holding on to a future I never knew
Just put me out of my misery
Lay my body down underneath
Life's not what it's made out to be
And I'm done living in this travesty
So how do I live with this pain?
Knowing I can't fix what I've done to me
I've watched the world take everything
As I grow closer towards the grave
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4. |
Regret
02:59
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All I have is wasted time
Because you said goodbye
Like a thorn in my side
You tried to take my life
Smolder in your tower of lies
Turning away those who tired
I could've given you the world
But those days have died
Like salt in my wounds
You fucking haunt me
And now because of you
My conscience eats away at me
I carried you with broken limbs and you dragged your feet
I hope he deceives you
With the bullshit that you gave me
Please never feel love
Feeding off of your false embrace
I hope you loathe the thought of me
And the life that you threw away
And when the day is done
And when no one is by your side
You'll realize the weight of your words
And all the bridges they've burned
Like salt in my wounds
You fucking haunt me
And now because of you
My conscience eats away at me
I carried you with broken limbs and you dragged your feet
I hope he deceives you
With the bullshit that you gave me
Here we are three years later
And the thoughts haven't changed
If I could take those years back
And every single
Lie that you said to me
If I could erase your memory
Will you still haunt my dreams?
What if I change the ending?
Does that mean you'll
Die in the final scene
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5. |
Crestfallen
03:43
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All my wounds stopped bleeding
But I'll keep scratching
Through the marrow
Through the bone
But I'll swear I never acted alone
Separate yourself from me
Ignore the temptation
I'm a living catastrophe
And death's my fascination
I'll push you all away
To help my depravity
There's no saving me
This is all I know how to be
Counting down the days
Waiting for whatever takes me
I want to bathe in kerosene
Light a match and set a scene
Self induced atrophy
So you feel every ounce of agony
Selfishness in the first degree
And there's no time to bleed
Incinerate my hopes and dreams
Credence is a false opportunity
It only smothers you're vanity
Casting shadows of reality
Left to rot in the flames of my tragedy
I'll push you all away
To help my depravity
There's no saving me
This all I know how to be
Counting down the days
Waiting for whatever takes me
Set me free
Burn with me
Set me free
Burn with me
Still haunted by the words left unsaid
And all the countless ways I was mislead
The hardest part is the reality that
Nobody cares unless you're dead
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